“We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.”
― C.S. Lewis
Mitch says I am angry “all the time”. He is pretty close to being right. The days when I am in pain and the days I worry about the cancer coming back I am afraid. The fear leads to anger.
If I hurt this bad now, what is ahead of me.
I know what is behind me . . . days when I didn’t think I could face “it” anymore.
How can I face “it”? Again?
God is with me. I know this. I believe this.
Just this morning I asked Him, “How can I be a Sunday School teacher with such anger and hurt in my life? When I am so poor at controlling my emotional response to these?”
His answer, “Because you hurt you can help other who hurt. You will understand.”
This morning my voice was so loud I couldn’t hear Him. I had to cometo a stopping place where I could hear.
And be reminded by Him that He is here.
First of all though, I had to get to a place where the pain was so great that I stopped looking around and I sought Him!