A painful realization this morning . . . reading a book by Patsy Clairmont,  Under His Wings and other places of refuge. 

I keep praying that I want God to speak to me, that I want to do His will, that I want to do something BIG for Him. 

Well, what if His will is NOT for me to speak to women’s groups, nor to sing, not to . . . whatever I have in mind.  What if His will is for cancer to come back?  No, that is NOT what I want. 

God, help me, please, to realize that whatever you desire for my life is what will ultimately be the best for my life.  Help me, please, to rest in this realization and trust in You. 

It is hard, Lord.